1. Be all that I can as a wife and mother.
2. Make all Christmas gifts for next year.
3. Read more often.
4. Make Violet a quilt.
5. Try at least 5 new dinner recipes a month.
3. Read more often.
4. Make Violet a quilt.
5. Try at least 5 new dinner recipes a month.
1. Be all that I can as a wife and mother.
Mother. I feel like I've been slacking in my motherly duties as far as educating my daughter. I feel like I've been ignoring her more lately. I mean, she's definitely becoming more independent. If I leave the crayons in a bucket on the table next to some paper she just colors whenever she wants. She reads whenever she wants. She plays whenever. But she's been watching a lot of TV too. I really dont want her to be watching so much. I only read to her a couple times a day. We used to listen to music all the time...I'm sure I could go on and on...Wife. This one has probably the worst success so far. Although I feel more close to Justin than I ever have, getting there wasn't easy or fun. And there are still aspects of our relationship that I feel used to be strong, that are no longer. After starting the year off so well, tragically the night before Mother's Day Justin's cousin took advantage of me being drunk and tried over and over to make a move on me. He kissed me so many times. I told him to stop every time. He just wouldn't listen. I was trying to be understanding because I knew he was having a hard time with the way his life was going and I felt he was reaching out, just in the MOST WRONG WAY POSSIBLE. So, long story short, his cousin told his mom the "makes said cousin look less like a gigantic asshole" story....which she then told to the family. And now I'm somehow a cheating whore. Why is it that whenever someone is the victim, they aren't treated as such. Just because he was having a bad few months doesn't give him the right to ruin my life. And wtf was he trying to achieve anyway!? And folks, this is why I haven't been a great wife this year. I've been depressed and absolutely not myself since that night. I've never felt so naked and alone. I would rather have more kids and let the whole hospital check out my "lady business" as often as they like than go through something like that again. What's worse, is now I absolutely HATE that family. And no matter who says what to me, I feel I will never be able to be around them again simply because I cannot trust them. I have other feelings about this matter, but those are between me and Justin. Anyway...I'm trying to get over it. Its really hard. Justin doesn't want anything to do with his family anymore, and I dont blame him, it just makes me sad.
2. Make all Christmas gifts.
Yep, no money.
3. Read more often.
hm. kinda stopped blogging about my reading because I took a couple months to write a business plan, play x-box and then I started writing knitting patterns galore. Now my business has never started because I'm not in the right state of mind. bummer. It was a good one. Maybe 2011? : )
4. make Violet a quilt.
This isn't going to happen until we figure out if she's going to be in a toddler bed or a twin size bed. I'm assuming I should just make a twin size quilt, but I dont know what colors the room will be. These are tough and critical decisions.
5. try at least 5 new dinner recipes a month
Ok, I know I've done at least 4 a month, but I stopped blogging about them because no on cared. So...whatevs.
Well, that started off pretty depressing...I'm starting to think about my twenty-eleven resolutions. I think the #1 resolution will be all about me and becoming more awesome. This year has been terrible and I really cant wait for it to be over. Why do I want to wait until the beginning of the year? I'm not sure. I want 2011 to start as soon as it can, maybe I'm hoping 2010 has something wonderful in store for us still?
We can only hope.
