Business Plan

So, not that its part of my New Year's Resolution list, I have been working on a business plan. I'm creating a traveling massage company for corporate & sports massage. I am hoping to finalize my plan before the end of the year. If I can start this year I would be really happy, but I feel like that's too soon for the amount of work I have to do. (not to mention all the knitting, reading, cleaning, working & cooking I have to do)

Lately, I've been feeling a little overwhelmed and as much pain as I feel like I'm in, I'm secretly loving it. Its so fun to have something so big on my agenda. It's almost like I'm planning a wedding. I thrive off of having these big projects. (I honestly cant wait to start on Violet's toddler room!) But, I don't really feel like I'm thriving. I feel like I'm trying to achieve something that is too big for me and I'm going to be knocked down and embarrassed when my plan doesn't work out. I'm sure ll these feelings are just my nerves beating me down. I've only spent a month or so planning and writing and I still have so much more work to do. I'm trying to go through all of my school books and see if there is anything in them that can help me. None of them really touch on how to sell without being too pushy. I have a lot of phone calls and research to do still.

I think my biggest fear as of right now is how I'm going to sell my massages to the big companies. I know I don't have the educational background as the people I will be trying to sell to and that is slightly intimidating. I am confident enough to talk to anyone though(just not on all topics)(--I could go into detail but it wouldn't be nice). I'm not in the right mindset for this kind of sales conversation though. I really hate sales-people. SO MUCH! I hate that they are pushy and relentless. I don't want a phone call every single week(charter communications!). So, at least I know what I don't want and what I do want.

I'm just so sick of seeing companies being formed based on finances that they sacrifice their ethics and standards. A lot of people say not to make business personal, but I feel that the massage business is very personal and I'm having difficulty figuring out how to sell something so personal. I have been writing down thoughts and trying to put them together, but have had no luck so far. I'm sure I will be fine and I will figure out what I need to.

That being said, I haven't really been keeping up with my normal cooking, reading, knitting regime and I have only thought about this quilt I'm supposed to be making for Violet a couple times. My stress level is through the roof right now! Good thing I'm not pregnant!

**I'm not looking for your emotional or business advice, I'm just getting that out of my system.